I'm sitting in my room surrounded by a mess and it's driving me crazy! I can't sleep, way too much on my mind. Is it just me or does life come at you really fast when you least expect it? Like one second things are content maybe even a little boring and the next a million new different things are happening?! Good things of course..life decisions that make you have every mixed feeling and emotion you could possibly imagine having?? That's exactly how I feel now.
I've just begun packing my room at my parents house because I'm making a big move. One that I hope is just a big step that will lead to many other big and exciting steps in my life. After spending the past year living back home with my family trying to make up for some lost time (I moved out on my own when I was just 18), I got an offer through school to live in a loft in the downtown Manhattan area. It's in SoHo which is probably my favorite spot in the entire city. I'm very very excited, but also very nervous at the same time. I've lived on my own before so I'm not worried about not having my parents, but I am worried about life in general. After a lot of hardships and bad decisions--or basically bad experiences the past few years I really just want this to go well for me. Growing up on Long Island, I always dreamed of living working and going to school in the city and I've already done two out of the three so this last one is quite possibly the biggest step of all. I always have a fear of not succeeding, not being able to make myself happy, support myself and live up to my expectations which I do set quite high. I'm also terrified of not having all of my dreams come true...luckily there's always something or someone that comes into my life or right before my eyes at those times of doubt and I suddenly realize that I can make it happen. Whatever you want in life you just have to go after it. Don't give up. Don't let fear take over and make decisions for you. I have to say through any bad experience I've ever had, scary or upsetting as it may have been, I do not regret any of it. I know in my heart those decisions made me a better and stronger person. I'm starting to believe there are no mistakes...more just lessons learned. I look around my room and see pictures and can only remember the good. I also can't help but be so grateful for my family and my best friends. So I have to let my fears go...I have to be positive and make the best of this next big step in my life. It is the beginning of a new chapter...one that I have very high hopes for.
Which reminds me how happy this blogging business makes me. I feel like I put a lot of work into it but more importantly a lot of myself. It really makes me happy. What also makes me reeeallllyyy happy is reading all of your blogs, and any comments I receive because I always end up discovering so many great other blogs to add to my list of readings. This blog is my creative outlet but it's also amazing for me to read your stories, or see your beautiful photos and doses of daily inspiration...it keeps me going and never fails to put a smile on my face, so thank you. My blog world might take a back seat for the next few days, at least until I'm settled into my new digs! I will come back full force and I'm hoping to write even more this year on my down time. Extra blogging with extra love. Take care for now my little darlings..
xO
I've just begun packing my room at my parents house because I'm making a big move. One that I hope is just a big step that will lead to many other big and exciting steps in my life. After spending the past year living back home with my family trying to make up for some lost time (I moved out on my own when I was just 18), I got an offer through school to live in a loft in the downtown Manhattan area. It's in SoHo which is probably my favorite spot in the entire city. I'm very very excited, but also very nervous at the same time. I've lived on my own before so I'm not worried about not having my parents, but I am worried about life in general. After a lot of hardships and bad decisions--or basically bad experiences the past few years I really just want this to go well for me. Growing up on Long Island, I always dreamed of living working and going to school in the city and I've already done two out of the three so this last one is quite possibly the biggest step of all. I always have a fear of not succeeding, not being able to make myself happy, support myself and live up to my expectations which I do set quite high. I'm also terrified of not having all of my dreams come true...luckily there's always something or someone that comes into my life or right before my eyes at those times of doubt and I suddenly realize that I can make it happen. Whatever you want in life you just have to go after it. Don't give up. Don't let fear take over and make decisions for you. I have to say through any bad experience I've ever had, scary or upsetting as it may have been, I do not regret any of it. I know in my heart those decisions made me a better and stronger person. I'm starting to believe there are no mistakes...more just lessons learned. I look around my room and see pictures and can only remember the good. I also can't help but be so grateful for my family and my best friends. So I have to let my fears go...I have to be positive and make the best of this next big step in my life. It is the beginning of a new chapter...one that I have very high hopes for.
Which reminds me how happy this blogging business makes me. I feel like I put a lot of work into it but more importantly a lot of myself. It really makes me happy. What also makes me reeeallllyyy happy is reading all of your blogs, and any comments I receive because I always end up discovering so many great other blogs to add to my list of readings. This blog is my creative outlet but it's also amazing for me to read your stories, or see your beautiful photos and doses of daily inspiration...it keeps me going and never fails to put a smile on my face, so thank you. My blog world might take a back seat for the next few days, at least until I'm settled into my new digs! I will come back full force and I'm hoping to write even more this year on my down time. Extra blogging with extra love. Take care for now my little darlings..
xO
